FUCK YOU -

Only NOW you fuckin' realize huh? It's too late; I got someone new!
Yup, Denzel Corpuz. Dont come runnin' back to me anymore. Dont tell
me that im you're everything.. You told me to get the fuck over you!
You told me that you didnt wanna be with me, and that you're doing GOOD
WITHOUT me.. It's whateva! Now you're dissin' him because im gettin'
to know him! You cant say that this is all my fault; because it's partly yours!
So just leave me alone already. I dont wanna start anything, I dont want
anything happenin' between you and him!

Just know that you will always be apart of me, okay?

JOEY HANA'LEI SEGUNDO

I can tell that you dont want me no more.
I can tell that you dont need me no more.
Just by the words you say.
Just by the things you do.
"Someday I will have to get over you.."
"There's a lot of other guys in the world.."
Can't you see that I really need you babe?
Can't you see that my life sucks without you?
I can't move on. I dont want to move on.
I dont know how you can just throw everything away.
Hurts to see that you've got no feeling.
Hurts to hear you say that I dont need you no more.
I know this is all my fault. I know you lost feelings because of me.
But I shocked about how you could just move on to another girl already.
I want to change for you. I'll do anything to have you back.
Ill stop getting mad. Ill stop breaking up with you. Ill stop all my bad habits.
I just need you so much babe. I dont know why you can't believe that.
But if you really want the other girl, you can.. As long as you're happy, I am.
Like what I always say.. I'll love you ALWAYS. Remember that.

BITCH! HAHAHAHAHA...

ALMOS MY BIRTHDAY GUUUUUUUUYS
;D

┌∩┐(-_-)┌∩┐

Today's the 8th of March! Haha, 1:23am. DAMN, I suppose to be sleepin'. Well, Friday night O_O Was fucked forealsz. Hahahaha, funny at the same time though. So yesterday we went to visit my brother again, then went Windward Mall for cruz um then Babe's house & then ate out at MABUHAY'S with whole family. Suppose to sleep over Shannon's house but couldnt. Next time! Today? Idk what my plans are, probably go over Shannon's house help paint her new room ;D I miss babe though. URRRRRRRRRRRGH, hardly spend time now. But it's alright. The ma dont like that, so ill try not to like it either. Anyways, im done. Gettin' sleepy now.

I WAAAAAAAAAANT MY PERIOD TO COME >;[

URRRRRGH!

Fuck this world! Everything's messed up. My brother's gone. Im slackin' in school. Everybody's fuckin' fiiiiighting with eachother! My boyfriend makes me feel like im invisible! What else could go wrong? Last night, we had this celebration for my brother at Chai's Island Bistro! Later that night, these stupid Waianae boys, who thinks they're relatives started a stupid fight. I mean, sure they were drunk but they started everything. Then they had for run off when the fuckin' popo's came! Stupid idiots! They say they're gonna finish it at tomorrow nights funeral.. fuck they better not! They ruined last night's celebration for Alex, so they better not ruin tomorrow's funeral.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YOU GUYS! FUCKIN' GROW THE FUCK UP, FUCKERS! No make like you guys fuckin' related to Alex, just because you all lived in Waianae. Stupid asses!

R.I.P ALEX SUGUITAN

I have'nt been doing my blog lately. But I was too busy with studying for school, and was tired & lazy to do this. But now, i've got time. Anyways, left of on January 18th. That was my papi's birthday, didnt do much. Just had some friends come over & ate cake, then went to Kams & Wallgreens [sp?] was plannin' to cruise around but Joey, Drazen & I ended up going home.

Now it's January 26! 8 days had passed, Joey & I made 13 months, had Leiah Reese's birthday. & the most saddest thing happened.. My brother Alex, had passed away on January 24 which was Saturday mornin'. He was going to work, 6 in the mornin' & a car crossed the center line and ended up on the same lane as him causing them to bang head to head. The guy who crashed into Alex was only 18yrs old. Then the impact made my brother's car to spin and ended up the opposite way he was headin' which made another car crash into him. A mother, daughter & another person in the back. The 18 yr old is in critical condition & the mother, daughter is in serious condition. So much things is happenin', planning the funeral, gettin' lawyers so we can sue the guy, so much!

But all I want Alex to know is that, we'll always miss him & that we love him so much <3 REST IN PEACE BELOVED BROTHER.

OPPPPPPPPPE;

DRAZEN WAS HERE NIGGGUH ;D

WASNT EVEN

So, yesterday the news people said that it was gonna be rainin' and wind will be going 60MPH. Omg, they lie! Nah, JK. Wasnt even cold, but was rainin' a lil. Spend my day with babe & his ma, went to go to his Orthadontist thing by Blaisedell [sp?] to change the color of his braces. Haha, he got hot pink? I know right, so girly ;] Then went to Kams, Aunty Jody went to go buy Subway & we aint junk food from McD's. Got back to his house, & had to be at service reeal early cus was on worship. Didnt really like it, cus Amanda wasnt there & I felt off since there were like 4 guys singing over me -__- Anyways, after we was planning to go to this party. But found out we were gonna be home around 1 or 2? So Babe and I ended up not going. IM SO GLAD I DIDNT GO, I WOULDA GOT BUSTED TO THE MAAAX >:[ But anyways, got home & talked to Joey for awhile then went to sleep.

Then today, went to Joey's house AGAIN! Didnt really do nothin except eat and sleep. Haha, then went home around 4 cus he was gonna go cruisin' with his friends. When I got home, js on the computer & ate. Now im doing this shit, & waiting for babe to call me. Tomorrow's my dads birthday, so im spending time with parents [: Movies, maybe shoppin' at AlaMoana. Lol, then probably small party for my dad after. Anyways, imma go now - my eyes are tired of staring at the screen.

BTW, THERE'S THIS DOG I REALLY HATE! IT'S SO UGLY, YOU GOTTA SEE IT >;D

MA FOUND OUT ABOUT BOYFRIEND

HO MYYY GOSSSH >:P I GOT HOME FOR JOEY'S HOUSE ONE DAY; & MY MA AND DAD WAS ABOUT TO GO OUT SOMEPLACE. SO WHEN MY DAD LEFT TO GO TO THE CAR, MY MA WAS LIKE "I SEEN THE PICTURES OF YOU GUYS KISSING!". ALL I COULD SAY WAS "OH". IN MY HEAD IM THINKIN LIKE, "AMIE YOU SO CAUGHT! WHAT YOU GONNA DO NOOOW!". HAHAHA, THEN SHE SAID "YOU GUYS BETTER NOT DO ANYTHING STUPID!". I TELL HER, "IM NOT LIKE THAT! EVEN SHANNON THEM'S PARENTS LET THEM HAVE BOYFRIEND!". SHE GO, "WELL, I DONT TRUST YOU!". THEN I SAID, "IM THE GOODEST GIRL OUTTA ALL OF THEM". SHE GO, "I HAVE TO SEE IT TO BELIEVE IT!". THEN I ASKED HER, "ARE YOU GONNA TELL DAD?". SHE SAID, "NO." THANK GOD,

I'LL PROVE HER THAT IM A GOOD GIRL!

OH HAPPY DAY

Babe & I made up this mornin, cus last night we were arguin' again! But ya, today was freaking cold to the maaax! Was a bad day to wear shorts and a shirt man. But it was alright, thank God wasnt real bad nawmeen? 1st period was fun, as usual. 2nd period, did an exact same math test from last term & forgot everythaaang >:[ 3rd period, was hella boring! & 4th period, we went to the library to search up "CAN ANIMALS THINK?". We were all asked if we wanted to be in Honors English, but im really scared if I cant catch up with anything. Maybe i'll try! After school had VC, then babe finished school early today so he met up with me at Fhs. Went to Kams, they ate pho & parfait? I ate a banana lumpia only. Then after, went to babe's house. Chilled for awhile, then went home. & BREAKIN' NEWS: All public school no school tomorrow! Haha, you know what that means, 4 daaay weekend bitch :D & it's almos my fajah's birthday <3 I've got alot of homework too, i'll do it on Monday! Play now, homework later! Nah, JK. Hope we wont have blackout or floods again, I FUCKING HATE THAT! But right now, im suppose to be watching America's Best Dance Crew, but my dad wont let me. So ya, now im js doing this shit.

BACK TO SCHOOL

January 14! Was too tired & lazy to get up, but had school today & I didnt wanna miss anythaang. So got ready around 5:30, left to go babe's house at 6:00 and got there around 6:15? Idk. But slept some more, then left to go Kim's house. After that, we met up with Drazen, CJ & Val (i missed that girl so much) almos by Kayla's store. Bought some drinks and musubi. & started walkin' to school. It was already 7:5o when we got to school. Usually the bell rings at 7:55, but was 5 minutes late. Advisory first, & got report card & schedule! Got straight A's nigguh ;D But got no reward from parents; sucks! First class was 3rd floor, was fun cus had Calvin, Christian P, Shannon, Hannah & alot more people. So far, I love this class the most! Haha, wanna meet new people too [: 2nd period got math again, so people. Was boring, all I did was talk stories with May. I MISSED HER TOO <3 3rd period, got Mr. Motooka! Haha, people say he's cool. My first impression, he's alright. Kinna funny too. Told us his stories bout this girl who liked him when he was in High School. Was funny, forealsz! But gotta take choke notes, my hands gonna get sore! 4th period, got Mr. Wayman! Urgh, people say he's BORING! Oh gosh, he talks like he has no feelin'. But I got LANCE, SHANNON & VAL :D & some other people, I think it's gonna be fun later. Well gotta go, babe's callin' BYE -

ALALA UKALELE!

Mmmm, I have'nt been bloggin' for 2 days already. I got too lazy, I guess? Hmmph >:P I forgot what I did on the 12th? But I know that I went out, haha. Shoot! But on the 13th, we went all around the worrrld :D Haha! That morning I got ready, walked to Shannon's house and waited for her cousin and his friends to pick us up. First, we decided to go Yogurt Land since none of us went there YET! We were all fucking excited till Jordan had to ruin it & say that he didnt wanna go no more. So we drove there for nothin'. Then we stopped at the gas station to put gas, & CJ was complanin' bout how hungry she was. & I had a feeling for a Kona Coffee shake, haha. So I told Jordan to go to the closest Jacks! & we did, had a little trouble cus we were holding up the drive through. Bought almos everythang on the menu! Nah, but after we decided to stop by Sandy's. We all felt like tourists, cus Jordan is a "Nalo" boy & he dont know nothin bout town. So we stopped & asked people how to get there. It took him a long time finding it's way. But ya, we got there & passed through. Then passed by Makapu'u & Sealife Park, etc etc. Went through Waimanalo, then decided to go Pali Lookout! While gettin' there, Jordan almos banged this car & did something to this other car which made the driver call him out & shit. The guy looked scary & ugly! We got there, wasnt that windy up there, wonder why? But went down the old Pali road. Looked scary cus had this garther looking like string hangin' from the tree. Was thinking that somebody must've hung thereself! OOH, HEEBY JEEBIES O_O Then after, went all the way back Kalihi picked up Shy & Steph & headed to Menchies. Didnt get to buy cus I ran out of money already! But ya, Jordan them had to leave so we headed home & had some little difficulites. But everything was alright at the end. Oh wait, but when we was headin' back home.. OMG! IT WAS SO TRAFFIC & JORDAN WAS RUSHIN', WE ALMOS GOT INTO A CAR CRRRRASSSH AGAIN >:[ Such a wreckless driver, ya? Tsk, tsk, tsk!

ANOTHER BAD DAY

YUP! I WAS RIIIGHT >:[ TODAY WAS ANOTHER BAD DAY!
First of all, I woke up fucking early.. Like 7, and I remembered that babe had to meet up with his friends by 8. So I called him up on private, & I knew he js woke up.. But I didnt say anything. He hung up, & I was just waiting till he calls me. It was almos 8 already, so I figured he aint goin answer. So I got all sad and kinna anger, I texted him. Then got into an argument. Didnt talk for the whole day. I js forgot about it. So since he was havin' fun at water park, I should have fun too you know! Got ready went to Shannon's house, waited for her cousins them for like an hour? Then found out, they dont have the truck! So we had for squeeze in one small tiny car. Drove to Pearls, bought our ticket for "The Unborn", ate Panda's first & waited for Steph & Shann. But the moving was starting soon, so we had for look for seats. CJ was complaning because she said the theatre's stinks! Haha >:] When we got in, everybody was goin crazy. I gotta say, mostly had Farrington students! People were taking pictures, boys were jumping over the seats. Then this lady who worked there came in and scolded all of them. When had the previews, we all was fuckin' scared already! I sat between CJ and Drazen [: CJ got busted from this hawaiian guy that was sittin' in front of her cus she kept kickin' his chair. Haha! Everybody was goin nutts, especially the girls! Was screaming so fucking loud, when the scary part was done already. I dont blame them, cus they was sitting in the front. The movie was the most scariest movie I ever watched. We all was shettin' bricks, even the BOYS! & before the movie they was ackin' all tough. Whaa'eva! I missed Joey the whole time, like forealsz! Anyways, after Steph them ate so we chilled at the food court. We went Dip N' Dots after, and then went to sit down by Pacsun because we were waiting for Shy. But we got too lazy, so we left to go back home.

Got to the Transit, & Hannah's brother came to pick us up. He dropped me home, so I could go change for the party. & Hannah went home for change too. Then Hannah met up with me at my house, and my dad dropped us off. We seen all Shannon them at the end of her street, so we picked them up. Headin' to Shannon's hale! When we got there, some of us were sleepy. Some were gettin' hyphy, & some were playin' games. Then suddenly, JOEY CALLS. & he told me the most craziest thing that happened at water park. I thought he was joking, but he wasnt. He told me, that this CALIFORNIA GIRL ASKED HIM FOR HIS NUMBER! So Uly and Gemar had to go & give it to that mother fucker. I dont feel like talkin about it, cus im gonna start gettin' all sad and shit again =/ I hope that girl calls him, cus I really wanna talk to her. Well, the party started, and we were outside chillin' till it was time for eat. Everybody was grindin'. CJ, who my gad! She was stilling my food. After that, Joey came.. & we had "the talk". Was getting bored so we decided for leave. Went his house, & my papi picked me up. Now im home, doing this. Well, I gotta go sleep. Im fucking breakin' out now. Bye <3

BAD DAY

First of all, plans got canceled. Well, I didnt really feeling like going cruzn' todays. But anyways, Hannah, Shannon & Drazen came over and chilled for awhile. CJ called up and asked if we wanted for go Blazens. We were all down for that, till she said she couldnt go out. We were really hungry, so we went Kams to eat Yummy's. Went funs, played and rest. Hannah's dad picked her up to go Blazens, so we js waited for her back at Funs. Then, she called up saying that Blazens were fucking closed. That's sad! So we went Jamba's, Drazen & I bought a drink. We sat down outside, & I was waiting for babe's call so I can go to his house. When he called, we all took the 2 bus. I was heading to Tasty's and they were heading to CJ's house. But CJ was already on the bus going to meet us up at Kams! Lol, so she had for get off and meet them on the bridge. Wasted a dolla. Was with babe, we both went service and he didnt feel comfortable so he left. I felt all depressed and shit during service, so I didnt have a spritual feeling at all.

Oh ya! Found out the Ghayl (my niece) has ULCER. I dont know what it is, but I hope it aint thaaat bad, ya know? God just watch over her still <3 I LOVE & MISS HER TO THE MAX!

Tomorrow's plans: Movies with friends; watching "The Unborn". Shy said was alright. Then after Lester's party! I have a feeling it's gonna be another bad day -.-" Babe aint gonna be there to comfort me when im scared, he's gonna be at the water park. HAAAW, cant do nothing. Cus that's what he wants to do.. Feelin' kinna weak inside; been cryin' my eyes out this whole time. But whatever, I js hope tomorrow's gonna be funner than today.

Night loves [:

Another Regular Day;

Okaaay. Woke up 6 something, to call babe AGAIN! I miss that motherfuckingbitch, haha <3 I miss them hoes too, fuck! Especially Val; have'nt seen her in a loong ass time. Took pictures at Apple store, then went back to kalihi to pickup Steph, Shy & Sevallino [: Decided to go to Pali Lookout, but the car was gonna die (something like that?), so we turned around when we got to Kaneohe and headed back home. Chilled at Shannon's house till babe got home from school, & then went over to his house. WHOO ~ Im tiiired, forealsz! Anyways, im done with this. BUHBYE loves.

DAAAMN >:P

Last night, got home late! I was hella tired, forealsz. I brushed my teeth and went straight to bed. But I had for wake up 6 in the morning to call babe, cus he was heading to school soon. & after, i went to sleep again. Woke up fuckin 10 something! Ate & used the computer, waiting till someone calls me up. So Shannon called and asked if I wanted to go her house. So I got got ready at 11. & I was reeeal lazy to go out, but I had to cus I planned to go babe's house after. Didnt leave till 1 something, haha >;] Then when I got to Shannon's house, had only Hannah & Drazen. & I was HELLA tired still. Anyways, we decided to go to Kams for buy food & Jamba Juice, went back to her hale to eat & watch The Epic Movie. I stayed for a little while more, but had to leave to go babe's house. Left his house at 5:40, and now im home eating my ass off! Im fucking hungry.

GENKI'S

I woke up around 6 this morning, and was wondering if I should go Genki's with my girlfriends [including some boys] today. Took shower, and was ready by 10:30. Met up with Hannah and CJ at Kalihi Waena, & waited for Drazen by Kalihi Super Meats. We took the 1, which was the wrong bus. So we stopped at Farrington where we met up with Steph then :] Then suprisingly, CJ lost her money. So Drazen and I offered to treat her. YOU GOTTA PAY US BACK! Haha, I ate so little bit. Compared to Ms. Butay over here. Haha! She wanted some more mochi icecream. Nah, was hella good though. Forealsz! Then after, was planned to go Kaka's but didnt. So only Steph, Shy and James went. Then we agreed to go to Alas, but ended up not going. So we all decided for go back Kalihi, & go Joey's hale. Ate & played games, watched T.V. I missed him so much today <3

Seen stuff I didnt like at all today. Those stuffs seem so fucking sassy! BITCHES >:P

Anyways, gotta go sleep. It's 2:00 sharp, though im not tired yet. Tomorrow's plan is to chill at CJ's house & after spend time with baby <3 Kthns, night.

2: SHY, STEPH AND SEVALLINO

I remember when we were all 8th grade. We would always talk shit, and hate eachother so bad. Right babygirl's? Tell me not. But now, were in High school. We became reeeal close, and hang out almos everyday. Im glad, i've met Steph, Shy and Sevallino ;] Alot more other girls too. Haha, im lucky to have you girls as friends. Though, im not really REALLY close with you guys yet. But I hope we do get real close. I know we've only became friends months ago, but thanks for everything you guys have done for me. Shy; for giving me advice when I need it. Steph; for comforting me when im down. & Shann; js for being the greatest <3

I hope we'll be girls FOREVA EVA!

Gonna Miss Ya =/

Tomorrow's the last day of your winter break babe. You know what that means >;[ Back to Iolani! Im gonna miss you so fucking much! Even if you're only 2-3 hours away from me. I hate it when you're so far away. Atleast we do get to see eachother in the morning, but for only a hour. That hour goes by fucking fast! Then you're gone for the whole day. HAW! To me, it feels as if you're going to a different state. & when you come back, feels like I have'nt seen you for years! I try to get use to it, but it's hard not seeing ya. Idk why I always feel like that though, sucks forealsz! I just hope that you'll do really good, so you can go FHS for 10th grade. That's all I want babe. Cus im tired of feeling this way every single day. I LOVE YOU BABE <3

Boring Day

Went babes house as usual. Stay there till 2, then met up with everybody at Tasty's.
Were heading to Blazen Steaks for lunch. Met up with Steph, Shy and Sevallino [sp].
Then I had to be on worship this week, so went service early. Was too busy having
fun with my girls that I forgot all about my stupid wallet. Lucky never had money,
but has my bus pass for January in it! Urgh, this is what you call irresponsible.
Hope I find it soon. Well kthns -- nites!

NEW YEARS EVE

Spended it at Joey's hale with his family. Damn, it was hella fun! Good thing Hannah and CJ came, cus if they didnt I woulda felt really lonely. Anyways, started off the night eating chinese food from Tasty Chop Suey's! Was good, uhuh. Then right after played SHARADES with Joey, CJ, Hannah, Jordan and Aunty Jody. I lost the first game, and for the second game I won 2nd place. Recieved 5 bucks, haha! Then after we played a game called "Apples to Apples" ? Haha, was fun. But I gotta say CJ's good at these games! After we went down to McD's but was close, so we went Jacks! We only ordered desserts. But when we were heading back, we seen 15 cop cars by KPT. Aunty Jody wanted for park her car and watch, but we rather pop fireworks. Back at the house, Joey's sister them arrived so we started popping fireworks. Was really LOUD, BRIGHT and fucking HUMAAANGO! Took videos and pictures. It was getting really REALLY smokey. Popped some more fireworks and BOOM it's 2009 already ;] Went back in the house, played another game of Apples. We were all tired so we went in Joey's room and slept till my dad came to pick us up.

WHOO! What a night, haha! Cant wait till next year, LMFAO >:]